Problem

So today I started thinking about my amazing wedding co-ordinator Amanda, and I thought I would shoot her an email so we could catch up and go over a few things for the big day. Let me tell you, this is the nicest woman EVER. She's always on top of things and willing to do whatever it takes to make our day special, and she is one of the reasons we picked our location. I baked her cupcakes once, and she called to say hello one day and told me she had a present for me. Seriously, this woman is amazing.

I sent the email.

A couple hours later I got the following reply: "Unfortunately Amanda no longer works here. Call me when you have a minute. -Stephanie"

NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

So I called this "Stephanie" person, and after looking up my file and calling me Linda (which is NOT my name), she said things looked good and we can meet up this weekend to discuss the wedding.

Here is my problem, Amanda made some big promises to us about a few things and I trusted her so much. She went above and beyond and even came in on her days off to meet with us about things. She swore up and down that she would be there on our wedding day, and we had a big speech prepared that we were going to make about her. "Stephanie" couldn't remember my name two minutes into a conversation.

They say something is bound to go wrong at every wedding... I pray to god that this is it so I can fix it now, and move on to a perfect day.

BTW... I burned my thumb REALLY bad on a hot glue gun today while working on Super Secret Wedding Project, and that is the only hint you will get about it.

Fish

People often ask me why I'm afraid of fish, so I thought now is a good time as any to explain.

First of all, I blame my brother. When I was little he told me jaws was going to come get me, and when I was swimming, he would swim under me and grab my feet and pull me under water then say it was a fish that did it. When we'd go on vacation, he would be swimming then scream that the fish were eating his feet. At one restaurant we went to, there was a fish with big giant teeth on the wall, and he told me that's what the fish biting him looked like. No who WOULDN'T be terrified after that?!?!

Now let's explore some creatures of the sea.

The Narwhal.


How scary is this thing? It's a giant fish, with a giant sword attatched to it's head. Yeah I know, you can only find them in super cold waters, but really... would you WANT to find one? What if it stabs you while you're swimming around helplessly? Forget sharks, Narhwals are the new shark.


Manatee:

Sea cow my ass. It's slimy, fat, and absolutely disgusting. I just imagine it holding onto me and sucking out my brain. I would never want to share a pool with that.


Angler fish:

OMG WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?!?! Imagine swimming around on a hot summer day and knowing that deep down, that THING is swimming below you.. lurking... waiting to kill. I never seen a kitten that looks like that... so I'll stick to kittens.

Sperm Whale:



This nightmare is all of the creatures above rolled into one. It's huge, it's ugly, it has TEETH, and it's lurking...

Why do people swim in the ocean when there are creatures out there like this? The ocean is filled with horrible untamed creatures the size of houses and cars, that have TEETH! And SWORDS on their heads!!

It was hard for me to even google these pictures because seeing them up close will give me nightmares. So there you have it. I'm afraid of fish, and hopefully you are too now.

Happiness

This weekend was truly wonderful, and even though we didn't get around to everything on our to do list, we really had a great couple days off.

I like movies, ALOT, and when I came home friday night, we popped in a movie and cuddled up with the cats and the dog, and started off the weekend right.

I just never thought I could be this happy, and when sunday rolled around, we fired up the BBQ and while he cooked a tri tip, I prepared some artichokes and we had an AMAZING dinner. He's really becoming quite a cook, and I can't help but smile when I think about how our children are going to have a childhood similar to the childhood we both had. Good food, the smell of BBQ, and hopefully, a pool. We were quite the happy family, and the evening ended with chocolate dipped strawberries and cherries, and more movies.

I'm really looking forward to getting married. Although the big day itself is scary, I have no doubts that I have found the perfect guy for me. I miss him like crazy when we're apart, and I wish time would stop when we're together. Sigh. I'm starting to sound like a cheesey romance novel. I should really be saving this stuff for our vows.

In other news, Super Secret Wedding Project is moving along quite well, and I've been making 2 to 3 "favors" each day. They're turning out so much better than I had hoped, and I can't wait til it's all done. It's just going to be hard to give them away. I still need to work on centerpieces, and invites go out next week. YIKES!

Wish me luck!

Weekend

I looooove weekends! Who doesn't though? It's different for me though, because it's the only time I really have to spend with my wonderful fiance. He works days, and I work nights. Even though I unfortunately have to work Saturday night, I am super excited for a whole bunch of stuff that is going on these next couple of days.

1.) Take the dog and cat to the vet. This may not sound exciting for you, but it's VERY exciting for me. I'm not a morning person, but our 10am appointment will get me out of bed and ready to start the day at a reasonable hour so I don't waste my day sleeping. I would much rather be out with my love, even if it's just a trip to the vet. We really like our vet too. :)

2.) Getting our rings engraved. It'll be another thing off the list!!

3.) Costco. He HATES going, and I HATE going alone, but I've convinced him to go with me tomorrow. MWA HA HA!

4.) Wedding Invites. He's going to assemble, and I'm going to address them. They have to go out in a couple of weeks! YIKES! Can't wait to cross it off the list though!

5.) Tri tip. He's going to BBQ it, and we're going to enjoy a nice bottle of 2005 Riesling to go with it. I know it's not a red wine, but we like it, and we deserve it.

6.) Getting some good friends to help me with Top Secret Wedding Project, placecards, and centerpieces. This will be VERY exciting too. The more we get done, the less I have to stress about.

7.) Toy Story 3! Three words: movie, theather, popcorn.

Looking back at this list, I'm feeling kinda dumb for being excited about trivial things, but my days of hard partying are over, and I couldn't be more thrilled to be average.

Diet

I hate dieting, and to be honest, I don't really believe in it. You shouldn't have to suffer when you're losing weight, which is why I'm eating a giant piece of pizza right now as I type. I'm not kidding either. It's DAMN good.

I've lost about 12 or 13 pounds so far on this little workout routine I have, and I'm feeling pretty darn good. How am I losing weight AND eating this amazing BBQ Chicken Pizza? I run. I run everyday, and quite a few miles. I eat lots of protein, and LOTS of fruits and veggies. I also drink TONS of water. I'm about 5 to 7 pounds away from where I like to be, and I've got two months to do it. No problem! I've already given up my social life to work on Top Secret Wedding Project, so it's less tempting to go out to eat.

I get fitted for my dress next month, so I'm very excited to see how well I've done with dropping the pounds. (Heating up another slice of pizza.) Wish me luck!

Meltdown

It's been a long time coming, and it has finally arrived. I thought wedding planning was supposed to be fun and happy and exciting... but it seems more like stressful, guilt ridden, and frustrating.

When I hit high school, my self esteem that I had lost in Jr High came back full force, but now that I'm getting married in less than three months, it has dropped significantly. Suddenly people are telling me to lose weight, fix my hair, lose the glasses, and now I can add, "Oh no, you're not wearing THAT are you?" to the list. I always liked the way I look, and I LOVE my glasses. They help me stand out. I used to have a 40's hairstyle that really made a statement about who I was, but everyone told me to get rid of it, and foolishly I did. I regret it every day.

I went to the eye doctor recently to get an anti-glare coating in my glasses to help out with the photography for our engagement and wedding pictures, and the eye doctor went on and on about how I shouldn't wear my glasses on my wedding day. Ummm... then how am I supposed to see? He suggested contacts, I said no. He suggested surgery, I said HELL NO. My glasses are me. If I suddenly ditch them before the wedding, then I'm going to look like a stranger walking down the isle. "But you're going to be embarrassed years later when you look back on your pictures!" No I wont, because I'll STILL be wearing my glasses. AAARRRGGGG!!!! Thanks for calling my glasses ugly.

Our Engagement pictures are happening tomorrow, and we are really excitied. We have some fun ideas planned, and my fiance suggested that I (the bride) wear a white shirt, and he (the groom) wears a black shirt, and we both wear jeans. Sounds good to me! I'm so glad he has an interest in this, so that makes it even better! Now it's 6pm in the evening, and the texts start rolling in. "You're wearing white tomorrow? White doesn't look good on you. It's not flattering" Oh thanks! Especially since I'll be wearing white ON MY WEDDING DAY. I'm not overweight at all, in fact, I just lost about 10 pounds, but thanks for calling me fat.

This weekend can't get here fast enough. By the way, our photographers are AMAZING, and I know our pictures will look good no matter what, especially since I'll be standing next to my husband to be.

Progress

There are two things on my wedding checklist that I have been worrying about slightly more than everything else, and that's hair and makeup.

Growing up, I always had the same woman cutting my hair, until I dyed it black on my own and she cussed me out when I went to her to fix it. Six hours and two hundred dollars later, I decided not to ever go to her again. I went to Supercuts where they didn't speak English, I went to another place where the stylist cried and ran off half way through the haircut, and then I just let my hair grow and grow until I could find someone else. So when it came time to find someone to do my hair, I was terrified, until my mom pointed out an old friend of mine from Elementary School who does hair. Let me tell you, she is GOOD. I attended a wedding and saw some of her work, and immediately asked her to do my hair. I've known her for most of my life, and it's truly and honor to have her. Success! Cross it off the list!

Makeup. I've never really been a girly girl, and I never really learned too much about makeup growing up, so there is NO way I was going to do my own makeup for our special day. My soon to be mother in law (who is AMAZING by the way) suggested a friend of hers who I have met a few times and really like. She works at Nordstrom so you already know she's wonderful and beautiful, and now she's doing my makeup!!! I am jumping up and down with excitement right now! Success! Cross it off the list!

I am putting my head into the hands of some beautiful and talented girls, and there is no doubt that I will look perfect on my wedding day.