Dreams

Isn't that an awesome bed? I totally want it! Anyway, that's not what this blog is about. It's about dreams. Well, night terrors to be exact.

When I was little I was tormented with horrible dreams every night, and terrifying visions. I would wake up to a tiny witch standing on my pillow who tried to suffocate me, I would wake up covered in bees, ants, and spiders, and I would see people standing in my closet, at my desk, or sometimes at the foot of my bed. My bedroom was haunted. My radio would turn on in the middle of the night with the music at full volume, and strange voices would keep me awake. Bedtime was the worst time of the day, or night I guess, and even though I grew used to it over the years, it never really got easier to handle.

When I moved out, I was thrilled to escape the horrors of my corner bedroom, and I finally learned what it was like to sleep peacefully. Until now.

I've moved from apartment to apartment with no problem, and now I live with my fiance in a little house in a nice neighborhood. The terrors started again late one night when I woke up to find myself in the middle of a game show, in my own bedroom. The music was deafening, and I had to covevr my ears to drown it out. I started to panic, but I had nowhere to run, and when I looked down at my sleeping fiance, I honestly had no idea who he was, or where I was. Isn't that scary? It's weird because I'm awake, I know where I am, and I know it's not possible for all these people to be in my room, but it's so real that I HAVE to believe it. It's been happening more and more, and according to my poor fiance, I've started to become violent. I yell at him, scream at people to "Go away," and thrash about in utter panic. Last night I woke up and saw a little girl handing me my laptop and I told my fiance that his little sister just wouldn't leave me alone. Ummm... he doesn't have a sister.

There is no pattern to these "episodes" and I really have no idea what's going on. The visions only happen at night, I've had them all my life, and I stopped believing in ghosts a while back. I just hope I can find a way to stop them.