Time

It just isn't on my side. The closer I get to the wedding, the more frequently my anxiety attacks become.

I've taken on a monumental task with this Super Secret Wedding Project, and it stresses me out so much. Each favor can take 30 min to 2 hours, and who can find time like that? I'm working 40 hours a week, sometimes 6 days a week, trying to plan this wedding, trying to stay in shape, and trying to mantain my social life. The only time I really have to work on things is on the weekend, which is also the only time I get to see my fiance. He gets sad when I'm working on wedding stuff instead of enjoying a movie with him on the couch, and I just don't know what to do.

People want to hang out, but it takes forever to load up the car with all the stuff, and by the time I get it to the destination and unload it, I have to go to work. I'm trying to cut back on weekend activities so I can get more stuff done, but there is just too much going on. Too much. I still need to make the centerpieces, and finish place cards too!

I'm being pulled in every direction and I just want to go away to a queit room and bury myself in the Secret Project until it's done. IT'S SO FRUSTRATING.

Did I mention that I'm so busy that I don't even have time to eat or clean or do laundry? Why take the time to cook a meal when in those thirty minutes I could have another favor done? Cherries take WAAAY too much time to wash, I could have cut out place cards instead. So yeah... I don't eat either.

I just want to hurry up and get to the wedding so I can relax. I need it.